Learning...

I have never cried so much in my life as in the last two years. These years have brought floods of tears, of joy and of pain. These years have taught me about smiling in pain, about self-respect and dignity, about selflessness, about selfishness, about pain, grief, joy, charity, about holding on to things and about letting go…

All this has made me a stronger person, yet I tend to be weak at times and tears still fall… The lessons I have learnt are precious and have changed me and made me a better person. I have made friends in strange ways, and lost few too. Life does this too everyone I suppose, these are the challenges that life throws at us, it gives us choices and respective consequences. It tests our intuition and rewards us in its own miraculous ways. Few months back these years seemed like a punishment but, now I know it’s for the better, and I am looking forward to the next two years as well, because they hold more experiences, more opportunities, more magic…

And in this situation I remember a mentor of mine, Rev. Fr. John Prakash, for once he told me, “There are no problems my dear, there are only opportunities.” I didn’t get him then, but now I know what he meant. Life is like this big jigsaw puzzle, I guess in my case I just got a few pieces in the right place already…

Finally...

Finally, I could muster up enough strength to keep away my laziness and inner conflicts  and could start writing. Time brings about changes... Within and around us, and we lose or gain certain traits,unfortunately in my case i have lost a few. And now is my time to reclaim who I was, and I ain't gonna lose my chance this time. It's been long since I wrote last, I don't actually remember when was the last time that I was satisfied with what I wrote, so I thought I'd try again, and this time I will write to Express myself, thus the name Evince. I may still feel unsatisfied with my post, but that would also in one way mean that it is the way i am feeling,the feeling of unsatisfaction. And so, when  I finally start feeling satisfied with what I write i.e. with my expression of what I think, it will mean I feel Satisfied and then I will be able to fix myself up... What is to be fixed,will be written soon enough...